Hello there :)
It’s been a while!
When I first started this blog in June 2013 I needed to lose 16 stone and as I write this post in July 2015 I still need to lose 16 stone, in fact, I am 3 pounds heavier!
My last post was in January 2015 and not only did I give up the diet, I gave up blogging. I did not want to have to tell you (or admit to myself) how I was failing week after week. I gave up and ate what I wanted and it felt wonderful, a weight was lifted off my shoulders; the pressure was off. I still cooked the Slimming World way (mostly) but I enjoyed a take-away every Friday and the crisps, chocolate and cakes began to sneak back into the virtual shopping basket. Well, I say sneak but I actually mean fall like an avalanche, I was treating myself every evening, well, all day long actually!
|Me and the hubby, June 2015|
There is, however, a downside to eating what I want (as if I didn’t know that already); as my weight crept back on my mobility went down and my pain levels went up. So now I’m back where I started, barely able to walk more than a few metres and taking painkillers every day. I am very aware that I’ve done this to myself, I am also aware of the consequences as I enjoy a large piece of cake and packet or three of crisps. I know the consequence weight gain has on me but in that blissful moment I am pushing all thoughts of consequences to the back of my mind. I am ignoring what I know will happen just because I want to eat whatever I like, and I like a lot!
So, what to do now? Well, I am now under my local hospital’s Specialist Weight Management Service (SWMS), I’ve had a few appointments and their approach is completely different to any diet I’ve ever known. In fact, there has been no mention of following any sort of food plan; it’s more to do with addressing the reason for overeating. It’s been a great help so far and after a few appointments just chatting to someone, I am ready to start again and start thinking about what I’m eating and portion control. I’ll let you know how I get on when I go back in two weeks’ time. The SWMS can also arrange for you to see a bariatric surgeon with a view to weight loss surgery, but this is completely up to the patient and I believe it is a long process before the surgery is even offered. I don’t know what I want to do at the moment, the thought of surgery has always frightened me, but I’m trying to look at the long-term goal (to be alive!) and will consider all of my options.
So, I’ve made a start and purchased a weighted hula hoop from Argos. I must be only person who can’t do it! I’ve tried and tried (bearing in mind that I’m so unfit I can only do bursts of 2 – 3 mins) and the blooming thing will not stay up! I mistakenly thought my considerable girth would help, well obviously not as the video shows lol.
A word of warning, weighted hula hoops hurt when you drop them on your bare feet! I am currently sporting a bruised big toe lol. Oh well, no gain (or should that be loss?) without pain!
Thanks for reading, tata for now xx